Cancer, Friends, Downtown and getting old

First lets start with the cancer. My Granny has lung cancer with it spread in other places in her body. It is small cell. They have given her 2 years 50/50. Not good no matter how you look at it. I have had many emotions when it comes to this. Denial, Mad, Sad, Hurt, Hopeful i could go on. I can sit and say now that when i think about it the most i am is MAD. My Granny is 72 years old she has been smoking since she was 12! That is 60 years!!! Sixty freakin years!!! I understand addictions, really i do. In this year there is so much medical proof that lets you know what smoking does, it just bugs me. People very dear to me still smoke, my husband, mother father everyone! I am the only one that doesn't. Maybe there is something wrong with me. I know that until she gets better this is going to bug me. I am not one of those ppl to go and protest what others do or to try to preach to them but perhaps when i go to florida i will bring some pictures back of how granny is and so other ppl can see what they will face if they keep smoking!!!

My best friend came into town last week and we went out. I love getting ready to go out getting pretty and just having a good time. I can honestly say that the downtown scene is no longer for me. Dinner with great food and wine is what seems good to me! I have had a nice life had a lot of fun and a lot of great friends. I have 2 lovely children and i think that it is time to do grown up things! Maybe it is just time to relax and have dinner here and there!

I hope to start writing at least every other day now. I would like to get this blog up about my life and where my journey takes me!

Granny, Crazy kids, and babies

Granny was diagnosed with cancer about 2 months ago. She started her kemo and has done really good. She has just been really tired. She has kept her appetite and still remained herself with her crazy sense of humor and her wonderful outlook on life. She has been really optimistic about everything, Including her HAIR. She has had that same hair style since i dunno when. I remember it for the longest time. Well today she called and told me that she lost her hair. I dunno why but i had so many questions. I knew that i should have expected it but DAMN. She got herself a wig and i hope that she gets used to it by July. Granny is taking it
really well.
She is so optimistic about everything that i can't not be the same. Granny has been my grandmother, mother, friend, best friend, shoulder to cry on. She is my rock, she is who i look up to. I know she will be okay. She has to see her great grand-babies grow up!





These damn kids are nuts! It is like they gang up on me in their own way. This week was hard Daddy had long days and a duty day that sucked! They didn't give me a break for one second. Also with the new puppy they all have me in circles!!! I love my kids but maybe today I will get a break. The puppy is doing great with potty training and he is very well behaved. I could not
have asked for a better dog. The kids are a bit
rough with him but they will be fine. They just
need to learn that they can't hit him with things
and can't try to drag him in blankets! Maybe
one day he will stand up for himself!




Today was also hard because I went to the hospital to see my friends newborn who is in NICU. It tore me apart. Her son is in the NICU for the same thing E had. He was also born at 36 weeks so they are treating him for preemie and TTN which is what E had. It really tore me up for many reasons. A baby in NICU is never good. And i can only vision what my son went through when i was recovering myself. It really hurt but i knew that it was the best thing for him.

Info on TTN can be found HERE

Lets have cheers to a Great weekend